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2020-11-28 - Our last fight - 6/20/2020

I tried loving you. I loved you the best way I felt that it’s healthy and genuinely honest. I tried to be there and please you in a way you’d feel like you’re fully loved and you never have to question it. But it’s never good enough. Nothing I do or say is ever enough. You continually to test my patience, my tolerance and you are also taking my love for granted. Everything that I do for you is purely out of love and yet you’re treating me like I’m not good or not worthy enough for you to immediately solve the situation by apologizing/own up your wrongs. 

It’s my fault, I shouldn’t have been giving you too much of me. You treated me like you’re not afraid to lose me.

You can’t see that your own actions have caused so much heartaches...

I don’t know what to do anymore. When I saw that you didn’t care about my feelings, my struggles and my desire to save our relationship...I knew it was time to walk away.

I don’t know why it’s hard for you to love back. I’m sorry I’m not good enough.


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The last fight was in June 20 2020, I wanted to remember this text message I sent it to Kam.

Ever since that day, he stopped being an asshole, stopped with the whole nagging and stopped picking fights all the time. This is my reminder that when he goes back to his old ways, I’ll see this post and I’ll walk away. I’m never gonna make the same mistake. I’m too strong for that.

I don’t need another Dom.


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