The date is set. I'm leaving Canada on the night of September 2nd, on Saturday. My best friend Evin is flying in and he's gonna be with me for 3 days road trip to Boston.
My cancer.....well they've set the surgery date and it wont happen until December 2024 tho....
I don't really know what the fuck is going on but whatever. I'm still going to live my life but with pain meds for awhile.
I just need to get the fuck outta here. My job as a big sister duty to my younger siblings whos now adults are done. They're finally settled in and happier with what they got now.
It's my turn to live.
I've been listening to this Kid Rock song over and over over..it just resonate with me.
I've been sittin' here tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself
Lookin' for the payback, listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son and it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills that helps to ease the pain
I made a couple dollar bills, still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out stretched hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love
And when your walls come tumblin' down
I will always be around, yeah
And when your walls come tumblin' down
I will always be around
People don't know 'bout the things I say and do
They don't understand 'bout the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all the things I miss
Oh, somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No, I ain't seen mine
I've been givin', just ain't been gettin'
I've been walkin' that there line
So I think I'll keep a walkin'
With my head held high
I'll keep movin' on
And only God knows why
Only God, only God
Only God knows why
Only God knows why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river, hey
Won't you take me to the river, hey, hey, yeah